one more drink please... of water that is!

I have decided to give up drinking.

no, I am not an alcoholic. I do not have a drink on a daily basis or even on a weekly basis. but, I am a social drinker and I do enjoy having a drink on the weekend to help me relax or to loosen up a bit. So I have decided to give up this part of social Cin.

Me giving up my drinking is not because of moral obligations.
I do not think a person can automatically be labeled as a bad person, condemned to hell, because they choose to have a shot of Patron (with lemon and salt on the side please).
BUT
I do think that drinking can be a bad thing when the person does not have self-control and abuses it. People that drink and then act like if they belong in the cave-man times are so not cool.
I do not fit in this category. I am sure that I can, but I know how to hold my liquor for the most part.

The reason that I am choosing to steer away from the alcohol, (even though I know that this will be hard) is for my health. I have a goal to reach regarding my health. With this goal, I have chosen to make sacrifices now, so that I can enjoy later.
I have already given up soda, which was not as hard as I thought it would be. Although I admit that when I do sip on PEPSI, it's like speed running down my throat. (oh sweet PEPSI how I miss you).
Chocolate was the next victim on my list. That one, I admit was hard. I still stare at it with dreamy eyes as others enjoy it in front of me. cruel world.
And now I have moved on to alcohol.
oh margaritas, how I will miss sipping on you while out to dinner with the ladies and cracking jokes about life and anyone close enough to be a target. how I will miss the threesomes that we have had with Mr. Tortilla Face. And please, never let go of the memories of me puking and crying and puking and cleaning and crying because my mascara was running (I swear that this only happens in Vegas). but for now, I have to put you to the side and let go for a while.

so why will this be so hard you ask? mostly because I am exaggerating and want to seem as if though I have no self-control. the truth is that it's the environment that I have been in lately that makes me think that this might be hard. I have been in a lot of social settings where drinking is around me and being served left and right. And although it is easy to say "water please." it is also easy to say "oooh. a PatronRita!"
I do not want to lock myself up in my room simply because I know that alcohol will be at the next social function. Instead, I want to take the challenge and truly test myself. Will I give in to that voice in my head that says "oh one small drink won't hurt." or will I be strong and say "water please."
I do not promise anything. This is a test that I am willing to take on. I might have the same results as the soda and chocolate and pass without a problem. Or I might just fail this coming Saturday! Whichever way, it will be interesting to see... stay tuned for updates.

enjoy the silence
-Cin

weekend summary

this was a great weekend. Like always, I wish it was a longer one. I really think that Friday should somehow be incorporated into the weekends. I know some people that work 4 days a week, for 10 hours a day. Personally, I wouldn't mind having this schedule. I always feel as if though I just need 1 more day.
Anywho - so this weekend I had a party, I babysat a precious child. And I went to another party. Good times. I usually enjoy the weekends when I get to just relax. I enjoy being at home and just watching movies and cuddling in bed. But every now and then I need to get out and have a drink, socialize here and there, and just enjoy myself. That is what this weekend was like. I think next weekend might be the same. I already have Saturday kind of booked.
A thought came to me this weekend - what if I were to end up being a single mother? Am I up for that challenge? I know it can be done. My mom did it, and there are plenty out there that are doing it as well. But am I ready as a person to take on this task? Just a thought - I know I won't be a single mother - but I am just what-iffing. Sometimes you do not have control of what is handed to you. It is best to be prepared.
Oh, so thanks to all that have recently been reading my blog. I am lucky enough to have a fan that has sent my link out to some people. I have gotten great reviews. I have been told that they enjoy my writing skills. That is awesome! It was also interesting to hear their perspective on what they thought I was talking about when I wrote a certain post. Some of their ideas were way off. Some were on the dot. It has always fascinated me to sit with other people and read the same book, poem, whatever and then discuss what we got out of it. You would be surprised at how different we all see things. It is also quite fun finding out what the writer was really trying to convey and seeing how close your interpretation was. I had some great conservations about my posts and on others' views. So thanks for the extra hits! Keep coming back to read if you please. As for me, I will blog some other time. Time to work!

enjoy the silence
-Cin