stars when you shine...you know how I feel.

someone asked me today - if you had a lot of money and did not need to get a paycheck, would you still work?

my first reaction is hands down HELL NO!!!!!! I have been working ever since I can remember. Why not live off of that money for a bit? It would be so awesome being able to lay out under the sun and enjoy it. Or taking my dog out for a walk and then stop for some Pinkberry. Because you have to have Pinkberry if you're walking your dog. They have water bowls outside of their shops. Who can resist that? And then there's naps. Who doesn't enjoy naps???

and then the ADD kid inside of me says... hey get off your ass!!! I would go insane just being at home and doing NOTHING. I would probably go out and get a job just to keep myself occupied. It really is hard for me to sit at home for a week. It drives me insane. This girl was not raised to be a stay at home spirit.

but who am I kidding... staying at home. in my pajamas. sigh
why not?
maybe I could get a part time job doing something that I would have fun doing - like at a pet shop. Or in a book store. Just so that I can release some energy and so that I could feel as if though I contributed to society. and by part time... I mean 2 hours.. of course.

ah to wish.
ok back to reality - 9 to 5. mon-fri. semi-corporate America. paycheck to paycheck.

what would you do?

enjoy the silence
-Cin

so exhausted

today was madness at work. MADNESS.
no need to talk about any of it because I am done for the day. but man... what could I change about today? EVERYTHING. yes it is that drastic.

on to other things. my Banani is married now. WOW. yet she is at our house every day. And she reminds us that she still has the key. man she loves us. I wonder if it will be hard for her to get adjusted to the married life. I wonder if she will eventually learn to cook. I wonder if after the sex, the new Mr. Banani will be in better moods. let's see how it all plays out.

did I mention that today was a shitty day? It is. My brain is officially crap right now. Nothing works in there. Thoughts are drifting around. slowly. sadly. but nothing makes sense.

On to other things, I walked in yesterday to work to find out that someone that I used to work with is in jail. It came out in the news and all. Apparently, this person has been known for going to the high schools nearby and offering the minors rides. Now that he is long and gone from this job, it seems to be that he still has this habit. BUT this time it caught up to him. He has been charged with attempting to kidnap a 13-year old girl in Covina in his work truck. The girl was able to fight him off and get away from him. According to the news, later that night while the girl had dinner with her family, she recognized the truck outside of the restaurant. He was then apprehended and is now in jail. His bail has been set to $1 million. His family notified us that apparently the inmates are handling the fact that he is being charged for trying to kidnap a 13-year old. They do NOT tolerate child molesters or rapists in jail. They automatically give the green light to kill them.
I am upset. This guy was really cool with me on a personal basis. He was nice, funny, and has a young daughter that he always talked about. To see him in these eyes bothers me. You never imagine it could ever be anyone you know until it happens. This one was close to home.
Now nevermind me, imagine what his family is going through. What will his daughter be told when she wonders where daddy is? What are they going through? Humiliation. Anger. Worry. Stress. All for what? For him and his sickness. I am not sure how things will work out for him and his family. But I hope that whatever it is, it happens quickly to at least alleviate some of the pain that I am sure that they are in right now. As for him - he will get what he deserves.

enjoy the silence.

Cin

over rated

there are so many things in life that are freakin' over rated.
like working for the sake of having a paycheck. you work and work and work. and bust your ass to get through the day and the week. just so that you can get a paycheck and pay your bills. you should work because you enjoy your job. you should work because not only does it help you pay your bills, but it also helps you become an accomplished person that contributes to society. if you work for a paycheck, you are most likely miserable. unless you're nonchalant, and nothing really matters or bothers you.
worthless acquaintances are also over rated. like I stated in another blog - not all acquaintances are friends, but sometimes they pretend to be. it becomes confusing. fuck the formalities. why can't people just be up front. if I am here to work and you happen to be here for the same reason - why can't we just be that? two people that work together. why do we have to pretend to like each other when we really do not care? and also, if we happen to have a mutual friend - we are NOT forced to be friends. there is no hidden rule that says that we all have to hang out and become bffs. a cordial hello. and an occasional hang out session is enough. stop with the pretending that you like me because of our mutual friend. it's OK if we do not get along.
anniversaries are also over rated. you go through a lot in a year. not necessarily bad memories, but just a lot. why does it have to be boiled down to one day? one day of remembering what... that you made it through another year? how depressing is that. the pressure of buying gifts for each other is ridiculous. getting upset because after 425.3 years you have ran out of ideas on gifts is ridiculous. just treat an anniversary as another day and as a great excuse to take time off from work. the love you two have for each other should be spread throughout every day that you spend together. not just on anniversaries.

having said that - I am off next week. I need a vacation from so much over rated and unnecessary bullcrap.
enjoy the silence people. I will.

Cin

double-u, tee, eff

today was supposed to be a good day. f*ck him for ruining it so early in the morning. It isn't even 9 in the morning and he has managed to be an asshole already. Good job! thumbs up to ya. I was not aware that my job required me to be an accountant, assistant and a baby-sitter. I should get paid extra for that last one.
I refuse to allow him to ruin my day. inhale... exhale. I am going to do my work to my best ability as I always do. I will leave him be with his sissy fits. maybe aunt flow came to visit him...
a big fu to him.

today he needs to practice and enjoy the silence

-Cin