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This weekend was great.

But I am tired.

I always forget how big my nephews are until I see them and start talking to them. They are my babies, but they are no longer babies.
My Buddha is so full of life (and ice cream) and although he is a little bad ass, he is a real sweet boy at heart.
PichoPacho on the other hand is just a geek in the making. He likes to learn, conversate, and loves to tell jokes.
Seeing them this weekend made me realize that when I have my kids, my nephews will be older. I wonder if the gap between their ages will allow them to still get along…

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Something happened this weekend that I would have preferred avoiding. My sisters spoke about some issues that they had never discussed before. I knew it was going to eventually happen and I really tried to avoid having to be involved. I was able to avoid being part of the conversation, but the conversation took place with or without me present. My sisters have different views in some aspects of our lives. All three of us do. But theirs are on opposite ends and this difference in opinion has caused a bit of tension. I am proud that my younger sister is handling it like she is. She does not agree with my older sister, but she is actually handling like an adult. My older sister is simply stating what she feels, which is something that is usually hard for her to do. And I am just in the middle - listening and trying to be supportive to both sides (even though I have an opinion of my own that is different from both of theirs).
Although there is no hair pulling and curse words being thrown around – I know that there is tension. I just don’t want it to end on a bad note. And I definitely do not want to be put on the spot where I would have to choose.

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So a pastor is taking his puppy (Pete) for his daily run. Pete happens to be a boxer mixed with pit bull and when you look at him you think HOLY CRAP LET’S GO THE OTHER WAY (and not holy because it’s the pastor’s dog, but holy because he looks intimidating for a puppy). any who – so he is running with his massive puppy, Pete, when a small dog runs up to them and starts barking and barking. (it's always the small ones that start shit) Pete looks at the small dog and tries to get away. The small dog keeps chasing Pete and starts snapping at his legs trying to bite him. Pete keeps lifting his legs trying his hardest to dodge the small dog and its bite. The pastor then starts to freak out. What is he going to do? What if this small dog keeps trying to bite Pete and Pete gets tired of it and bites it? There is no way that the small dog would stand a chance of surviving. So the pastor decides to do the only thing he can think of doing to help Pete, his sanity, and the life of the small dog--and he kicks the small dog across the street. The deed is done. The small dog stays on his side of the street. The pastor continues on his daily run with Pete and although the small dog that doesn’t know it yet, his life was saved that day.

hello weekend

I missed you so much.

I think I am catching a cold. Maybe I just need rest. Sunday I slept late - which meant that my body got used to late sleeping - which meant that each night this week I have slept late, and gotten up in a hurry. Can you tell by now that I am a woman that always has a battle with sleep! I just need one night of some GOOOD sleep and I should be ok. if that does not help then that means that I just might get a cold. orange juice.
on to other things...
I know that I am an emotional person. I know that I think and react with my heart first before reason. As the years have passed by, I have learned to stop myself from reacting automatically and think things through. I react now with my heart and my mind. I know that I have improved on that part.

BUT (there is always a but)

sometimes, I just react like a girl normally would. my feelings get hurt. I question myself. I sulk. I can't say that I do not like this part about me as it is part of being a girl. I just hate feeling down. I am one that fully commits, so when something bothers me... it really bothers me. It usually takes a bit to distract me and to get me out of that hole. These are usually the moments that I decide to blog - when I am angry, upset, down, stressed. I cannot pretend my life is peachy 24.7. And I don't need to blog about all of the great things that do take place in my life because it would seem too plastic. So please do not think that I am gloomy, and depressing, and crying, and angry 100% of the time. I do think that it is good to get hurt sometimes. SOMETIMES!!!! I think those moments make you stronger. They open your eyes and make you realize that the sky is not always blue and the grass is not always green.
so for the days when I am down - thank you. You give me great writing material. And for the days when I am happy - thank you. they help me get through the hard days.

and now back to the weekend. I've missed you so.

enjoy the silence
-Cin

weekend summary

this was a great weekend. Like always, I wish it was a longer one. I really think that Friday should somehow be incorporated into the weekends. I know some people that work 4 days a week, for 10 hours a day. Personally, I wouldn't mind having this schedule. I always feel as if though I just need 1 more day.
Anywho - so this weekend I had a party, I babysat a precious child. And I went to another party. Good times. I usually enjoy the weekends when I get to just relax. I enjoy being at home and just watching movies and cuddling in bed. But every now and then I need to get out and have a drink, socialize here and there, and just enjoy myself. That is what this weekend was like. I think next weekend might be the same. I already have Saturday kind of booked.
A thought came to me this weekend - what if I were to end up being a single mother? Am I up for that challenge? I know it can be done. My mom did it, and there are plenty out there that are doing it as well. But am I ready as a person to take on this task? Just a thought - I know I won't be a single mother - but I am just what-iffing. Sometimes you do not have control of what is handed to you. It is best to be prepared.
Oh, so thanks to all that have recently been reading my blog. I am lucky enough to have a fan that has sent my link out to some people. I have gotten great reviews. I have been told that they enjoy my writing skills. That is awesome! It was also interesting to hear their perspective on what they thought I was talking about when I wrote a certain post. Some of their ideas were way off. Some were on the dot. It has always fascinated me to sit with other people and read the same book, poem, whatever and then discuss what we got out of it. You would be surprised at how different we all see things. It is also quite fun finding out what the writer was really trying to convey and seeing how close your interpretation was. I had some great conservations about my posts and on others' views. So thanks for the extra hits! Keep coming back to read if you please. As for me, I will blog some other time. Time to work!

enjoy the silence
-Cin

weekend summary

good morning all --

and I say good morning, because for once, even though it's a Monday morning ... it is a good one.

so what has been going on in my life recently? Man oh man, so much to tell.
well this Wednesday I am having surgery. this damn gall bladder and its stones will be taken out. I am relieved, but worried. Anything that has to do with seeing a doctor always worries me. But I keep telling myself that after this is all done - I will feel much much better. No more pain or discomfort. I guess that we will just have to wait and see how it all works out.
having surgery means kicking butt at work. I will be quite busy today and tomorrow. I never seem to like leaving work pending. This is the perfectionist in me.
since I am having surgery, I wanted to have a good weekend before I was going out of commission. I was able to spend a realllly good weekend with my buddy Jaemy & family. It was mostly talking, bonding, laughing, eating, soccer, and I actually got to sleep. We went to eat at this place called the Old Spaghetti Factory, and let me just tell you... that was gooood stuff. I have always wanted to go there, but this is the first time I got the chance.
I did get to watch two soccer games on Sunday. The first was the LA Galaxy vs DC United. the Galaxy had their ass handed to them. Although Galaxy played ok, DC took the chances given to them and dominated. It makes me wonder what the G's are going to do for the 4th of July game against New England. If they want to get a win, they better show up to the game. The other was the Eurocup. Good game. Spain deserved the win. They have played really well throughout the tournament.
Watching those games makes me wish that I was from a country that appreciated soccer. The US still has not gotten a hang of the sport itself. Some jumped on the bandwagon when Beckham came, but the amount of fanatics are limited. It seems to me that the east coast has a bigger fan base. Whichever way, the sport itself has come a long way here in the US. I am excited to see how much more it grows. Hopefully the surgery will not hold me back from the game this Friday.
I have two other subjects that I wanted to talk about, but I feel that they do not pertain to this blog per say. So later on today... once my thoughts have been gathered I will type away.

For now - enjoy the silence.

Cin