hello it's me again

So I have decided to re-evaluate this blog.

I know that I have been lazy and have not been updating you all about my fabulous life. But I have been reading the blogs that I follow. One of my favorite readings - Clever Girl Goes Blog - just recently did a sort of meet-and-greet on her blog. She asked her followers to leave a comment about themselves and to leave a link to their blogs. This is when I realized to myself… self, Tia might actually read your blog. So I freaked. And next thing you know, she goes to my blog and reads it and leaves me a comment. She has all those followers, and the fact that she took her time to comment on my blog made me smile. And then the freaking out came back.

What is my blog really about?

What is its sole purpose?

What is she going to think?????

Originally I just wanted to write and write until all of the creative juices running in me had been squeezed out. Then I realized that I liked those juices and got lazy. So my blogging slowed down. Then I decided to get married and that took a lot of my time because I planned the whole thing. So that meant that I only had time to wake up, work, eat, pee, plan, go home, sleep, shower, and start all over. Now I am playing the wifey role so I’m really consumed with someone other than myself. As Salma Hayek would say in one of my favorite movies “EXCUSES EXCUSES!”

The truth is, I miss my blog. As lame as it might be. And those juices of mine are not content. They want out here and there. I have been bottling them up and let me tell you, the mix is not a good one. So this is when the decision to come back and be part of the blogger world came about. With that came wanting to re-evaluate the blog.

Why Savor Silence? Why was that name even chosen as the title for my blog? Should I keep it? I think I mumbled about it in my first ever post. But let me just give a briefing. It is a play of words on one my favorite songs from one of my favorite bands. Enjoy the Silence – Depeche Mode. Get it savor=enjoy / silence=silence? I didn’t want trademark issues, so I changed the words on it. Now why would I tell you to enjoy the silence when coming to a blog that is full of words that are dying to be read out loud? The way I interpret the lyrics are that sometimes words are not necessary. They can ruin moments, memories. Sometimes it is best to just enjoy what is right in front of you – silence – and embrace it.
So why involve this into my blog? I am one of many words. I talk as much as I type. I have been told that I am a chatterbox on more than one occasion and by more than one person. So why tell you to savor silence? It is simple really – when I read, I involve myself into what I read. Everything else becomes blurred. Even if music is blaring or if the television is on – it is me, what I am reading and the silence that surrounds us. I take my reading seriously. I might laugh out loud or even shed a tear, but the silence remains. And I like it. It is my time. That is what I am hoping people feel when they read my blog. Silence, them and my never-ending words, drama, vents, rants. And hopefully they enjoy it enough that they decide to come back. So the name is sticking. Even if my reason behind it sucks - the song is awesome!

And now what to write about… should there be a recurring theme? Should I continue my constant rants and nonsense?

This one is actually kind of hard. Although it would be great to have 425.3 followers, it would be even better to have a place where I can get those juices flowing and out of my system. Even if they only make sense to me and only me.

There are many sides to me. Sometimes I am on the jokester side. Sometimes serious. Sometimes I lack patience. Sometimes I talk a lot of shit. Sometimes I am sweet. you get the point... So when I express myself I do it depending on what I am saying, feeling, and whom is on the receiving end. I did not want to limit myself and force myself to act like just one part of who Cin is on my own blog. So I have decided not to. I am going to be me. I will write about what is on my mind – maybe less bitching. MAYBE. I will try to step back and look at things through other’s eyes. Although, this is not a promise, I mean my eyes are pretty, why mess that up? Most importantly, I am going to be more consistent. Blog often.

Let’s see how this second round goes. For those that enjoy it. Thanks. And please come back again.

hopefully Tia will be one of those ;p

Enjoy the silence
-Cin